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There was nothing magical about Holly Madison's time living in the Playboy Mansion and, in fact, it sounds pretty damn awful.

In her new memoir, Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, which Us Weekly has excerpted, Madison details how her then-boyfriend Hugh Hefner offered her drugs and tried to buy her with his will.

Of their first meeting, Madison writes, "'Would you like a Quaalude?' Hef asked, leaning toward me with a bunch of large horse pills in his hands, held together by a crumpled tissue. Hef did not miss a beat: 'Okay, that's good,' he said, nonchalantly. 'Usually, I don't approve of drugs, but you know, in the '70s they used to call these pills thigh openers.'"

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Madison, who was one of Hef's girlfriends for five years, moved in a few weeks later. When she tried to leave for good, she says he said he'd put her in his will so she'd stay. "It was there, in black and white," she writes. "The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I'd ever know what to do with... But I didn't want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn't help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me? I put the folder back on the bed just as I had found it and never breathed a word of it."

Now married with a 2-year-old daughter, Madison says, "I learned Hef was the manipulator and that he pitted us against one another," she noted. "I realized I wasn't treated well. I'm done being afraid of people. I don't have any loyalty to Hef. I haven't talked to him in four years, so there's no reason to reach out now. Besides, it's the truth."