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Megan Fox says the public may never know who the real Megan Fox is.

"I'm not willing to give my true self up. It's a testament to my real personality that I would go so far as to make up another personality to give to the world," Fox tells The New York Times Magazine. "The reality is, I'm hidden amongst all the insanity. Nobody can find me."

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In the interview, the 23-year-old starlet discusses her sex-symbol image and recent highly publicized jabs at Transformers director Michael Bay as well as her self-described manipulation of the media."If I had been a typical starlet and said all the right things, I wouldn't have escalated to this level," Fox tells the magazine. "All women in Hollywood are known as sex symbols. You're sold, and it's based on sex. That's OK, if you know how to use it."

As for the negative connotations that come along with her sex-symbol status, Fox shrugs that off. "Girls think I'm a slut, and I've been in the same relationship since I was 18," Fox says about her on-and-off romance with Brian Austin Green. "The problem is, if they think you're attractive, you're either stupid or a whore or a dumb whore. The instinct among girls is to attack the jugular."

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The most brutal atack against Fox hasn't been from fellow girls but from crew members of the Transformers film franchise. After Fox likened director Bay to Hitler, crew members released an angry letter focusing on Fox's own bad on-set behavior. "I know that the things they said about me in the crew letter were not true, but Bay is not happy with some of the things I've said about him," Fox says. "I was waiting for someone to defend me ... but nobody did. I think it's because I'm a girl. They left me out there to be bludgeoned to death."

Fox's career certainly has been hot — co-starring in 2009's top-grossing movie Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen, hosting Saturday Night Live's season premiere and appearing on countless magazine covers.

Since her public persona is making headlines and selling magazines, Fox acknowledges: "I do live in a glass box. And I am on display for men to pay to look at me."

But, Fox says, that bothers her. "I don't want to live that character."