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Kate Gosselin says she regrets berating and bossing around her estranged husband, Jon, on episodes of Jon & Kate Plus 8, conceding she was "wrong to treat him that way."

"I was very hard on him and I would never deny that," Gosselin told Natalie Morales on Monday's TLC special Kate: Her Story. "I felt very much like a lot of weight rested on my shoulders."

The matriarch was often captured chewing out her husband on the early seasons of the show and says critics were right "to a degree" that she emasculated him. "Was it good, healthy and wonderful? No," she said. "Am I proud of those moments that were captured? No."

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Gosselin said she doesn't have much sympathy for her ex, though, when it comes to his grievances about missing out on his youth because he became a father at 23. "I think once you become a parent, it's too late to worry about what should've, could've, would've been done," she said.

Things between the couple got bad "so quickly," the 34-year-old said, noting that their goals and visions had changed. She said she knew they were over on a plane flying home, but did not specify when. "I remember thinking, 'We're not going to recover from this," she said. "At the end of the day, I looked at him and he looked at me, and we were just completely different people."

She added, "I still wake up every day, and I think the phone will ring and it'll be the old Jon."

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