Fantasia Barrino says her recent overdose on aspirin and a sleep aid was not an accident.

"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Barrino told VH1's Behind the Music. "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with — all of it, all of that [expletive]."

The American Idol winner was hospitalized two weeks ago in what police classified as a suicide attempt.

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Watch a sneak peak of Behind the Music: Fantasia below: